Mr. High School revisited

Disclaimer: This warning really only pertains to the person I'm writing about...I'm aware that I make this blog public...which might be a mistake on my part, but!!! I know that there's a chance for the people I write about to read a blog post about them! So, Mr. High School, forgive me if I say anything off or if you're offended by anything, don't take anything personally, this is just how I process things...this is how the woman you're interested in works...hahaha...eep! Hopefully you'll stay interested!

So, to all my avid readers and friends, remember that entry I wrote almost a year ago...last august..about my date with Mr. High School? In case you forgot, you can either reread the entry here, or I can give you a quick rundown. It was a nice date, I enjoyed the conversations, seeing how he grew into this man since high school was nice, but! I was taken aback by how short the date was and confused by the follow up. After that date, a month or so later we tried to get together again and then we kind of just didn't and that was that. I hadn't heard from him since then until about a month ago.

It was nice hearing from him again, but I definitely wasn't as into it as I was last year because I felt like all he did was send mixed messages and wouldn't follow through with things. So, naturally, I had my guard up a bit. We've been texting back and forth for maybe a month now, it's been nice. I did mention something to him about his flaking and he apologized, said he's got all his focus on me now...

Last Sunday we decided to hang out, I say hang out because I'm not sure if it was a date or what it was so I might refer to it as a date or whatever, I dunno blah! It doesn't matter! We didn't meet until 10pm at a local restaurant. It was really nice seeing him again.  (Sidenote: Remember 2 weeks ago I wrote a post titled "What's your shoe size?" and I started it off with what my coworkers top 3 things are they look for in a significant other. Well, when one of them mentioned that arms are one of their top 3 I didn't get it until I hugged Mr. High School hello. Hugging him hello and goodbye, I just wanted to stay wrapped up in those arms of his forever!)

Anyways, this date went really well! We, again, had some good conversations. I definitely enjoy chatting it up with him. I loved learning new things about him, last time he was passionate about politics and this time he was too. One thing I enjoyed hearing him talk about, was electricity. He's an electrical engineer and he loves electricity. Let me just say that I love hearing people talk about things they are passionate about. He's a cutie.

So, it was getting late, around 12, and we decided to call it a night. He was going to try and pay for the bill but I said NO!! The only reason he let me pay was because I said I wanted to treat him for his birthday which was the following day.

Can I go back to talking about his arms? Well, I was so looking forward to saying goodbye!! Not because I wanted the date to end, but so I could get wrapped up again. Seriously, maybe it's because there's a lot of stuff going on in my life and being wrapped up in someones arms is all I've been wanting...needing!!! I don't know, but mm mm mm his nice strong arms....sigh.  I might have to substitute that for one of my top 3.

In all seriousness though, who knows where this is headed? I have no expectations like I normally do when things get started with boys.  I am so busy and feel like I'm being pulled in a million directions... well maybe only 3 directions, but they're 3 big directions that take up so much of my time and energy, emotionally and physically. So with this dude I'm in the mind frame that whatever comes comes, whatever goes goes, it is what it is.

It's funny because when I was with Mr. Hands I was fighting for a "serious relationship," and here I am not really caring at all what comes of this, just letting things flow. I guess a persons wants/needs can be altered when new elements are presented (I think I'm trying to sound smart...but I don't think it's working.).

Arms....arms....arms....arms...arms.....sigh... one thing I know that will remain constant for now is that I can dream of his hugs :) Sadly, that's the only thing I have room in my head to dream of. Well, it's not so sad, hugs are amazing things!


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Update!!

Hello lovely readers!

I figured I'd do a mid week update!

First off, I don't think I'll post Nostaligia 3 for next weeks post, I have something else in mind that needs to be discussed. It's something we all deal with... I hope I'll be able to do a good job writing about it.

Secondly! Alright! I've been wanting to update on Space Oddity and on Mr. High School.

I may also add some new thoughts at the end but I may have to be super discrete about them!

So!! Update on Space Oddity! Back around the beginning of August I wrote this cheesy desperate post about finding my future husband, about there being a planet full of future husbands and all that nonsense. Then! I went on to talk about 2 customers whom I am very much attracted to... and then I set up a silly goal for myself to ask a boy out... what was I thinking?!

I didn't ask a boy out, I guess I'm too much of a pussy to do that. Well, 1. I'm scared to do the courting.. I don't know how to do that! and 2. I realize that maybe I am too scared to start a relationship, maybe I am not as ready as I thought I was....hmm, something to think about. I'm rushing rushing rushing to find my future husband and yet, I just, hmm, am not ready. As much as I miss being with someone and as lonely as I feel at times, I guess now is not the time. Who knows when the time really will come. But! What we do have to remember, ladies and gentlemen, is that we must must must live in the present. I keep on forgetting about that. Live in the now! So, I'm trying to take my time... trying not to rush rush rush... and just walk through this life, and enjoy it!

Okay! There's that! Now!! an Update on Mr.Dickies, he was also mentioned in the Space Oddity post. So!!! Thank the universe for girlfriends! I tell you! If it weren't for them I dunno how anyone would get by in this world! :)

My bestie and I went to Mr. Dickies place of work (this was her idea) to.. you know... wait, I actually don't know... I can't say to "put the moves on" but to I guess stir things up a bit? See what happens? How Mr. Dickies will react?!?! Did he react? That he did! :) Not a major reaction, but the little things do help :) All he did was say "Hey, I guess I should just call you for the change order and you can drop it by after work from now on" and I giggled and that was it... I honestly have no recollection of what I replied with. I seriously become a little girl most of the time, when I'm around a boy I really really like. This primarily happens when I really like a boy and really don't know much about him. So then I tend to create this awesome idea of him and it goes down hill from there :) Then he served us our cheese platter and told us about each cheese (3 lil slices of cheese for $15...crazaaay!) and that was it! Oh! and guess what! He didn't do the whole "long blink" thing! high five!!!

So that was that... I hadn't seen him for about a week or so... Then! Well! Let me sidetrack a bit! Lately I've been trying to be a bit more girlie and more comfortable with being girlie, so on Fridays at work it's sort of a "wear whatever you want but you have to have green or purple" day so I decided to dress up cutesie girlie, I put on make-up too! WOA!!!! I know!!!!

On this super cute Friday I got to help him for his change order and what happened?!?!! He said "You look really pretty!" and I said "Thanks" I probably blushed too! Then he said "Not that you don't look pretty on other days, but you look extra extra extra pretty today!" and I said "Thanks" again, of course accompanied with some giggling!! UGH!!! I'M 27 YEARS OLD AND I STILL FUCKIN GIGGLE!!! GRRR!!! Makes me feel like a 5th grader. It was really sweet, I should've asked him out right then and there... but did I? Nope!!

So that's my Mr. Dickies update! ...sigh...

On to Mr. High School... you know what... I really don't want to waste my time writing about this OR your time reading about him... let's just say looks can be deceiving and while he looked like a wise man and we had adult conversations alas he is still in High School... NEXT!!!!

It's funny because after my Deactivation post... after deactivating that stupid OKcupid account it seemed that boys were being handed to me on a silver platter! First it was Mr. High School contacting me again ( achoo::bullshit::ooooo!) , then it was Mr. Dickies telling me I looked pretty :) and then! a freakin' curve ball thrown at me from I have no idea where!!

Here is the discrete section of this post!!

So, how do I go about talking about this boy!! I've known him for a couple of years, we have great chemistry, we can joke around and just have a great time! I do not even know if I should be writing about this, but fuck it! So, he told me he liked me! Which I never thought I would hear him say! At one point I had a little crush on him but shit...we can't be ruining friendships with crushes... I think, ladies and gentlemen (yes I used it again), we all know where that ends up, if it ends :) So, I stopped myself from feeling those things. And, well, SHIT! Now I'm just fucking confused! So, that is all I have to say. I guess there is no way of being discrete about this... anyone can read this...

But I find myself thinking about it often! I need to wash my brain or something. I'm gonna wash that man right outta my hair! haha! I'm not that obsessed about it that I sing a song about it, but it came to mind! I just never thought I'd be his type... anyways... lets wash up!


I guess that's that all!

Check out next weeks post!! It should be a good one!

Gonna go hop in the shower now ;)